I don’t like 3 hour examinations, and I don’t like writing tests in a room with 300 other people. Give me 8 hours to do the same test please, in a nice environment, so I have time to think about things, reason my way through problems, and get my answers straight; and I promise a good job. I know my stuff, but I have to think things through, thoroughly, and then I don’t have time to work through all the problems correctly. No, I do NOT have a learning disability. Sure, it’d be different if I had time to do learn the material AND do 60 practice problems, so that I could just regurgitate shit on my test, but I don’t. I guess this just isn’t the proper learning environment for me, for now, or probably ever. Since I only have 2 courses left, how about just give me my degree so I can just get out. Thanks.
I feel like this test was designed very considerately. I feel terrible for the look I gave my professor at the end of the exam. I believe the look was of angry defeat. I felt his countenance change. That makes me very sad, I feel the sadness in my eyes even as I type this sentence.
In anger, I broke a pencil when there were only 15 minutes left in the exam. Only 3 out of 6 sections of my test answered by that point. By the time the exam was over, I was fully angry, almost to the point of throwing tables. Trying to leave the room, the instigators (or whatever they’re called, I believe there’s a name for them, the people who take the students writing exams to the bathroom and such) were yelling at us to sit down and wait until everyone handed their papers in. I was not in the mood for being told what to do. I almost kept going, I almost did throw tables. I felt repressed.
I feel frustrated, and I feel like I let down my professor, and myself, and everybody else. I tried as hard as I believe I possibly could. This is extremely painful.
